Vulnerability

Today has shown me just how hard it is to be vulnerable. The Lord has us on this amazing journey....and its tough. Those two really do not go together, amazing and tough, but it is the truth. I think ahead and see us bringing home our baby and then quickly put the brakes on when I am reminded all that is left to do. God then reminds me about all the amazing things on this journey that will be shown to us and I start to get ahead of myself again. Have any of you been on the Pirate Ship ride, you know that big boat that swings back and fourth? Well those don't settle well in my stomach. I honestly cannot handle rides like that. I always look forward to getting off and putting my feet back on the ground. Well, this is how I can explain the journey. You are in line waiting to get on, the antcipation is so exciting, then you get on and while it is fun (those rides), there are somethings that you realize you are weak at (like my stomach on these rides) and you just cannot wait for it to be over. Once you are off you realize it was worth the memories made and the laughter. We know after this it will be worth it, its just the steps going through that we have to fully rely on God to help us with. Its faith. That's what it is. Faith in God and we are so honored to be on it. 

Its been a week since we announced we were expecting, in the form of adoption. It is crazy how we can already love our little one and we have yet to know when we will meet. Al and I have prayed about this day for a long time. Parents, when you look at your child can you imagine not having them? Can you imagine birthing them and then lovingly giving them away? It is a hard question. Al and I cannot imagine not having them, its a deep desire for us. We are aware of the challenges and heartache that take place, BUT EVEN still that is worth it. We long to be parents together, to walk through life hand in hand, going through every bump and hurdle, and listening to every laugh and giggle. We long to make memories and to teach our little one the love of God. We long for His will more importantly. This is our story and while it has been painful at times, we are richly blessed, for eternity. 

I mentioned it is hard for me to vulnerable. Adoption is a stretch in many ways, finances are one of those. God has already come through in big ways and we know He will continue. We are asking if you all will prayerfully considering being a part of our family by sowing seeds into our babies life? We have already started our first fundraiser. We opened an online auction through Facebook. This will be an on going fundraiser and new items will be posted daily and weekly. We are praying for a certain amount of money to be raised so we can complete our home study. After all the paperwork, this is one of the most important steps. Once our home study is done our baby can become our family, whenever that may be. It could take 3 months or 1 year, maybe longer. We know we will meet him/her one day though. In a week or two we will be starting another fundraiser. I am the most excited about this one, more details to come on this so please stay with us. 

If you are not interested on bidding online or being part of a fundraiser, but would still like to sow into the life of our baby, please email us at fishburn@palmerhome.org and we will give you the proper steps in doing so. You will be planting an eternal seed. You are also opening your life up and becoming apart of our family. All funds received will be placed in a bank fund strictly for baby Fishburn.

Our arms long to hold our little one. Thank you for joining us on this journey! We love you all!

Love,

Us:)